dont know what to say

walau susah macam mana pun belajar..walau susah macam mana pun nak faham ap yang lecturer ajar

walau susah nak faham apa yang kita baca even one page pun

walau orang lain lebih cepat faham dari kita sendiri..jangan sesekali ada rasa dengki dalam diri ini

Allah sentiasa bersama hambanya yang bersabar dan berjuang mencari ilmu

belajar kerana Allah..insyaAllah ilmu itu akan kekal selama-lamanya even sampai ke liang lahad

even i have to paid with not enough sleep 

i have to be patient :)

i found this quote..it give me strong to go on with my life

"As a Believer you should regard every minute spent on studying as a good deed and hope that Allah will bless you.So,even if you do not understand something and it takes you longer to read, you will go on learning as you know that every minute and effort that you put in will be regarded as a good deed and virtue by Allah, and the kindness will rewarded in some other forms such as good health.It important to be sincere in whatever you do" -from Prof Dr. Muhaya Book

homesickness...

hoho..lately i was not in well tp gagahkn gak hari ni melawat syarikat buku KAMAL..mula2 memang cadang nak melawat tgk2 bku..tp bli gak bku akhirnya

kedai ni mmg nmpk mcm kdai runcit,,tp jgn men2 ap y dia jual..hehe ;)

first time datang kat sini memang sesat..habis berpusing-pusing kat HKL tu nk cri kt mne kdai bku tu

rupanya dekat main entrance HKL..sng je bleh nampak

nasib baik bukak..i thought tutup sbb hri ni kan Malaysian Days

nasib baik ada mak ngan abah yang baik sgt2..sdi membawa anknye ni kesini

dah la penat..sebab kitaorg park kereta sgt2 jauh dri kedai bku ni

penat jln kaki..tp x kisah pn..tp kesian kat mak ngan abah..bukan diorang yang nak beli barang..tp ak..huhu.

terharu sgt2..

nk ckp byk bku y dibeli hnye 2 buah shje to subjek pathologist(robbins papa) n anatomy (moore)

bleh je nk bli through senior y nk tlg..tp ak plih skit je bku..sbb nk tgk sndri bku tu camne

ssh la nk pilih buku..sbb x study lagi n x tau buku mne y kt ske bce

buku medic bkn mrh.. ad stu bku tu smpi rm300 lbih..huhu

tapi ap y i was learn today..

mak ngan abah sggup buat ap2 aje u ank dye..especially when it abouts education

x kisah la duit habis byk mne pun..asalkan ank dia berjaya-my father

"abah sanggup cri duit smpi malam..ltih..asal korang belaja"

im going to crying..sob3..mmg x terluah sedehnye

ibu bapa boleh membesarkan anaknya 5 orang walaupun hidup dalam kemiskinan

tapi belum tentu seorang anak boleh jaga kedua-dua ibubapanya bila berjaya nnti

seorang ibu sanggup berjaga malam untuk beri anaknya susu

tapi belum tentu seorang anak sanggup meninggalkan kerjanya bila ibunya sgt memerlukannya

ble fikir balik pengorbanan yang diorang lakukan u kami adik beradik

i cannot describe it in words

i love u abah ngan emak so much

pray 4 my success..

insyaALLAH..along akan cbe y terbaik dan jadi contoh pada adik2...

about something....

letih...best ad gak..first day jd medical student

one of the lecturer said to me "bru masuk boleh la ketawa..lepas tu...."menangis la kot..huhu

terdiam pun ada..x tau nak ckp ap

but im nervous..but at the same time i have the passion to study

ble tgk buku2 medic..rse sgt bersemangat...

but when tgk module guide y bru dpt

im asking myself..can i??

byk nye..we need to cover all the topic..in short time

and we have only a few days holiday whether mid sem or holiday sem

really2 hectic life

now i just want positive word from senior or doctors

im tired hear negative word

"once u enter medical..u hve to ready to be busy person "

im scared hear this word and i dont know why

n our schedule from 8.ooa.m -5.oo pm..weekdays 

nasib baik first week x start lecturer lg..just introduction to medicine

about buku lg pening..byk sgt2..n tebal2..

im think im lucky bcoz have JPA scholar

kalo tidak hbis duit mak bapak semata-mata nk hntr ank dye jadi doc

jadi ingatlah

berbakti pada bangsa

belajar smpi habis 5 thun...smpi jadi specialist..insyaALLAH

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p/s : susahnya nak berubah bila iman x teguh...

counting..

today is really tiring...n i hope tomorrow i can sleep more.hehe

padahal cti ni pnye la byk tido..bleh hope lagi sok nk tido byk

penat sgt2..sbb print rosak nak settle kn borang JPA kalo bleh hari ni

mmg rse bad mood stu bdn sbb last minute pnye kje..bru nk relax kn otak ari ni b4 sok

tiba2 ada benda kena settle kn..inilah cabaran hidup..hehe

what i hope tomorrow??

dapat roomate best..dpt blik best mcm kat PALAM

wonder gak mcm mne agknye kolej delima 2 (y bkl diduduki pada sok hari)

dapat group best..4 class nnti

tp perasaan cuak xdela sgt sbb rmi gak bdk y dah knl n majoritinya kenal time premed

n from group kt FB(actually fb ni sgt byk membantu tok connect ngan kwn2)

tq pada admin MBBS UITM 9TH BATCH y tlh mewujudkn group ni

seriously byk membantu dptkn information tok msk degree

x lpe juga pada senior y byk share information

im nervous nak msk study blik.

yela dah lme tinggal budaya bukak buku...buat nota..

otak pun agaknya dah tepu

kalo tiba2 org tye psl ap y prnh blaja time asasi dlu

honestly x igt..mgkin blur je nnti

akhir2 ni mmg kerap kli wat post rse x mampu nak wat medic

thats why i feel now,,even sok nak daftar

kena doa byk2 ..agar dicekalkan hti

ada hikmah disebaliknya why i was in this field..

tekad..i want to be nerd student..

macam that guy ni..hehe

tapi x nak jadi camni..scary kot..

tapi kalo mcm kat bwh ni....mmg x tau nak ckp ap

I CAN DO IT..I CAN DO IT..I CAN DO IT..I CAN DO IT..

I BELIEVE THAT

5 YEARS....I HOPE I CAN THROUGH IT 

I HOPE I WILL ENJOY MY LIFE AS MEDICAL STUDENT

EVEN PEOPLE SAID IT WAS HECTIC LIFE

I HOPE I CAN ENJOY IT N FALLING IN LOVE IN THIS FIELD

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